I MISS HIM ♥

It has been such a long time dint updated my blog ad...
Actually sometime i wan to post somethg on my blog,
but lazy wan to type...

Recently i really dunno wat happen to myself...
i start missing HIM again...
not only normal miss,but is VERY VERY miss HIM...
He can consider d 2nd guy who cause me "addict" to...*sigh*
Does it worthy to keep waiting him????

Holidays Start~~

Mid year hols start jor lor...
stay at home really sien TTM!!!!!
But dun wan go out,
cox wan spend money--DUN LIKE!!!!!

2 weeks hols dunno wat can i do...
Erm...think will do some revision...*but alwex say only lar* lolz =P
Few months to go then i will sit for STPM ad...haiz
but i like it!!!! cox i can hang out wit SMATTZ...^,^v
GOAL MY TARGET-- STPM >3.5
hopefully i can get wat i expect...=)

Haiz...there is d same problem burden me...
enroll U anot?????????????????????? =.=?
If i really enter U then i will burden my dad...
Dad getting old,i dun wan him so "sam fu"...
I think i will follow my ori plan--work 1st..
after i save enuf money then only take d course i wan...
I also dunno whether this thinking correct anot....
haiz...vexed!!!!

Last nite i saw HIM on9...
but he dint find me...
although i find HIM,yet he dint reply ma also...
Really dunno wat is on HIS mind...wat he wan actually...
He told me that wan be fren,fine...i respect HIS decision...
but every time i sms HIM,he dint reply me...
Sometimes i will think--Are we still fren??????????????
This few days dunno why keep dream of HIM...
Isn't i too miss HIM????? maybe.....
I hope i can let go,but seem like cant do so....
I also wondering why i love HIM so much....maybe becox of his loyalty...

*Be happy always* =)

Sure DIE~~

today's sejarah paper1 die ad...
cox i just studied a liitle bit...
and i just did 2 question only...
sure can die!!!!!!
Hopefully i could get a higher mark on paper2,
so that can balance it...
Haiz....blame myself usually dint study hard--LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd day of Mid term--BM 1&2

Today's BM papers quite easy de lor...
I was very happy of it...
cox this is d 1st time i done all bahagian,dint leave any blanks at all...
and i wrote 3pg for my essay....HUHU!!!!!! ^^

BM 1 a bit disappointed...
becox d syllabus that tchr recently taught less come out...
and i made a simply mistake on a question--careless!!!!!
anyway,blame myself dint study hard...
I plan to fulfill my mid year sch holidays with exercises...GAMBATE!!!! lolz =P
I really have to cut down on9 time ad...
alwex fb-ing really will affect my study...
furthermore,i seem like got short sighted becox of on9-ing...
haha...sooner/later will become "4 eyes cat" jor... =D

*6 papers to go...add oil!!!!* ^,^

Mid term begin--1st day...

Early in d morning i received a msg that he sent to me last nite..
i very happy d whole day....hehe v^.^v
It had been a long time he dint msg me ad...
although that is just a very common forward msg,but it's really warm my heart...=)

K...back to d point...
today's papers are MUET writing n PA2...
MUET writing is a bit difficult--Q1 still ok,but Q2......................*sigh*
Q2 asked to write an essay untitled "Smoking in public places should be banned"...
My mind was blank,i also dunno wat was i writing...
i just simply wrote my essay,i expect it wont get a good result in it...
Nvm,i still have reading paper to score...
hopefully reading paper wont be so hard....-may god bless me-

PA2 paper quite easy,but Part A n B essay writing a bit difficult...
i dun have any point on that question at all...
i simply wrote it too...
Overall PA2 paper is easy if i study for it...=P

Nvm,it's past...dun think abt it anymore...
All d way in other papers....
Just tell myself "I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" =)
target-- >3.5 ^^

Return~~

Sometimes i will think...
if time could return,will i choose d same choice to tell him that "I like HIM"???
But now i got d answer ad--NO,i will not tell him a single word at all...
I will just keep it in my heart as my secret...
Why did i say so???
Becox i just realize that,if i dint tell HIM means now he still will sms/call me as we used to...
But now...everythg had changed...
he wont call me ad...even no reply my msg too...
I dunno why...i really owe a reason...
He wants me to let go him,does he????
I really wan to neo how's his life recently...
But now d situation seem like disallow me to do so...
Although he doesn't like me,we still can be fren...
But pls dun treat me like that...
Even u reply me a single word,i also will happy wit that....

Sometimes i will think that,isn't I d one who destroy our friendship???
I dunno why i will mind abt that...
mayb really somethg wrong wit me jor...haha =D

Miss~~

Today dunno why suddenly miss him again...is damn miss him..
I dunno why tis few days i kept emo-ing...
i feel like i just wan be alone...
dun wan talk to ppl,just do my own thg...
That's it!!!!!!
Maybe my hormone all got somethg wrong jor...lolz..=D
I really miss him...
but he seem like disappear...
dunno what's wrong wit him...haiz... ='(

*exam is goin to start on next week...haven't do revision...=(*

wow...almost 2 weeks dint update my blog ad... =P
not me dun wan update,is i nothing special to tell..
so i dun wan waste current n time on it...
*ceh...but then i still fb-ing everyday* lolz...=D

Erm...during this last 2 weeks no any special thg happened...
On 17/5,which is yesterday my sch celebrated teachers' day...
i attended to it...
I was goin becox i heard a form5's student said that there will be a break dance performance...
then i just go lor...
Be frank,yesterday performances were a bit boring+disappointed..
I tot d break dance performance will be very attractive n nice to watch...
but then...............................*hem hem*
i'm not criticizing here,i just can say that still have spaces to improve lar...
perhaps it was raining yesterday,so they couldn't performed well...
that's why i felt boring...
Or maybe i watched d real break dance performance b4,so compare to this i just felt so-so...
but it's ok lar,at least they gained a performance experience...and GOOD TRY!!!!
d important thg is they make chinese proud of that...
becox my teacher said b4 this,chinese student never involve in any sch's event performances...
That's a good begin!!!!! ^^

Btw,when i watched d performances...
all my memories came out in my mind...
I miss d time i did performances with my gang in ACS...
Ofcox not forgotten is d tarian kipas when i was in NS...with ann,tan2,suzzane,ah jie and kids...
How i wish i can do it again!!!!
When i recalled tarian kipas,there is many sweet memories in my mind...
thx ann for helping me to "create" d whole dance...really thankful to her...=)
she is really good in everythg--sports,academic and creativity...
she told me that she less join traditional dance...if not mistaken that was her 1st time..
besides that,i also thx to tan2,suzzane,ah jie n kids...
becox they dint dance b4,but becox of this then they joined...
Tan2 look like a ketupat,but then when she dance was very nice de lor..
soft n gentle...=)
*d important thg is she willing to join chinese traditional dance*
i was surprised with that...
At last,our performance was get a good respond...
jurulatih n pelatih all also felt it good..
i was so happy with that...=)
ofcox have to thank other LG member--tan,steph,ah bu and others to keep company us to practise...^^

So i alwex say that NS's life really impressed me...
i will never ever forget d time we spend together...
our everlasting friendship,especially SMATTZ will never end....
i'm glad to meet SATTZ too...*y 'M' missing ad??? becox 'M' is me='M'iow!!* =D
i wish we can be best fren forever n ever...
doesn't matter how,6 of us will still stick together...
to face problems,to share each other feelings,and to lend our ears to each other...=)

Erm...dunno what else to say ad...
That's all...=)

*it had been a long time dint see HIM on9 jor...and he dint call/sms me anymore...i miss HIM,really miss HIM...but i will keep waiting silently until d day he finds me...*

I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why cant them juz leave all d thgs behind???
why must them wan to take action????
I DUN LIKE,DUN LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!
although i neo they do like tis is for my sake...
but i really release it ad...
i dun wan make thg become worse...especially kinship!!!
but they still cant understand my intention...
i neo they wan get back d keadilan for me...
but i'm really ok...
i never feel tat is unfair to me...
d car is belong to my dad,so he can pass his car to whoever he wants..
i never angry wit tat,although i eager to have a car easy for me to go any where...
but then,i not really wan it too!!!!
why why why??????!!!!!
feel sad now...
sometimes i feel like wan to run away from here...
becox i really cant stand for it sometimes!!!!
why cant them try to understand my intention???!!!!

all my happiness n sadness i mostly keep inside my heart..
i seldom tell my family my problems...
most of time i try my best to overcome it...
but then how i wish there is a shoulder for me to rely on anytime i need...
so sad,i cant find it!!!!
all my frens are far apart from me...
i only can use sms,msn or fb to release my feeling...
n tell them my thgs...
i dun wan say anymore ad...that's all!!!

*thanks kee alwex be my "recycle bin"!!!!

等待？？？

那天姐姐突然问我~~
对他还有感觉吗？还在等待他吗？
我没有回答，因为连我自己也不知道答案...
我只是想一切都顺其自然，我不想想太多，更不想期望太多...
因为一旦有了期望，当结果不是你所期望的，就会全都变成失望...
现在我呢只想把书读好，好好计划将来...
最近生活上发生了一些小插曲，不过我会勇敢的面对...=)
还有几个月就读完form6了...
不知道要工作还是继续读大学...
不过我想较大的可能是做工吧，因为家里的一些事情...
我不想再靠家里人的钱过生活了，我想要靠自己！！！

*how good if i am a millionaire...

My right now feeling...

Hi,everyone...i'm new to bloggie...
I had open tis bloggie for 1++month,
but now only start to write somethg here...funny rite??? lolz=D
Biasalar,i am a funny person yet emo also...

Dunno why recently i getting more emo ad...
N i start to hate myself ad...dunno why...
I feel tat i've changed...juz like dun bother whatever happen surrounding me...haiz=(

Tis few days i start to miss him again...
Dunno why i will automatically think of him...
Perhaps i really fallen in him ad..
But.........................he will never ever neo abt it...
His ex get into a relationship ad...
Dunno he will let go anot???
Haiz...='(
Anyway,i've set my mind...I WILL WAIT FOR HIM...stupid hor????
I also dunno how come i so addicted to him...
Although he is not good enuf,but i still love him so much...wat the...........!!!!

Mid term is coming soon...
Yet i still everyday fb-ing n on9-ing...
Never get ready for it also...
Wat lar me...really lazy ttm!!!!!!
Miss SMATTZ and HIM now~~
Could he feel tat i am missing him now????